*Just to Express*

The words sometimes don’t find it’s way to the front of my mind, it just lingers in the background somewhere in between uncertainty and hope. It feels true to me like it belongs to no one else, but yet it stays stuck.

Breathe in…1, 2, 3, 4…hold 2, 3, 4…release 2, 3, 4, it’s coming back and closer than it was before. The tension fades away little by little and it gets clearer. I feel like I’m getting closer to the divine essence of my being. A practice I never want to forget because I am a whole person, I have a complexity of thoughts and feelings running through my veins and it will always be like that. Embrace, acceptance, love is what I’ll uphold, for my true self deserves to be expressed.

If only I remembered this part of me in my prime, the days when I needed her in a tremendous way.

Zip, tie, silenced, no words came out. I cut off a part of my life force and kept quiet. I shouldn’t have, I know, I heard her in the background speaking her truth, but I was the only one listening. The world outside was so much louder confident and sure of it self, there’s no way it would hear what I had to say. It wasn’t my time, is what I tell myself, and to a degree there’s some truth in that. I needed to endure, to fill that part of my road map to life, a tool kit that will be needed one day. On the other hand, the sooner the better rings in my head, telling me I would have been so much further and attuned, a useful component to society whom is still in dire need of support and guidance.

Has the clock of silence run out of time? Has the cup runneth over with so much to say? Well let there be light, shine, deliver the truth that only you can deliver in the way you know how. No more zips no more ties, no more silence, speak your truth, the time is now.

Love,

Jus2express